Loner

So, ( I start alot of posts/tweets/statuses with ‘so’ I should probably start varying it a bit)
I have 7th (last) period free, I’m not sure any of the people I know so far are also free so i bought my third large caramel latte from Starbucks of the day, sat in the canteen and got my notebook out to pretend to be occupied. It’s quite boring so I thought I’d just muster up something interesting to write on here. 🙂
I went to get my nails done in my lunch hour but instead of getting the usual extension and pink sparkles I had them cut short & painted black, I quite like them, although I feel all stubby and chubby handed!
Oh god, looking around, everyone is in groups but me, just a loner in the middle, PLEASE let someone I know walk by.. It’s quite embarrassing… Even though I’m trying to Iook busy.
I’m making friends here much easier than I was on the first two days here, I was convinced id be a loner for the two years I’m here, but I’m getting to know people in & out of my lessons now so it’s not too bad.
Oh, roll on 4.10 so I can go home!! Although, I’ll really need to do some excersize soon and I CANNOT be bothered to do that. Although, I have eaten super healthy today : Special K, coffee, nutrigrain bar (maybe two..), coffee, coffee, SALAD, coffee, banana pieces in yoghurt. ( but they’re in the healthy section of Starbucks so in assuming that they’re okay!) so minus the caramel in my coffee, the yoghurt on my banana pieces and the bad bits of the nutrigrain bar I haven’t done too bad, considering my summer diet was Pepsi and strawberry laces. Plus, the obscene amount of coffee was due to nearly falling asleep on the bus to college. AND, I could have bought a cookie for 1p today with my salad but didn’t. That’s pretty good for me.
I really don’t want to stop writing this post, I’ll have to find another way to look busy.. Maybe I’ll wonder down to the library and see If I know anyone there!
Bye for now,
Me x

Saturday

Good morning:)
Just before I start rambling on, PLEASE look at my last post, ‘just an idea’, it would mean alot.. If you shared it I’d love you even more:)
Anyways, today is Saturday, hence the title, Saturday, and my first day off in a while. I took advantage of this by turning off my alarm last night and planned to sleep in until at least 11.
That Didn’t work out, I got a text at 7 that woke me up so I may as well have set my alarm anyways.
I did go back to sleep though until around 10.
I’m spending my day off wisely, by going to my best friends dance show with all my other best friends. I’m hoping it will be really good. But she is a really good dancer so I know it will be.:)
Then I am going to spend the evening in with my boyfriend so I’m not too tired for work on Sunday.
I can’t wait for summer so I can have more days off and exams will be over!
Last night was my cousin’s birthday. She turned 21 and our whole family got together for a meal. She didn’t know this though, so there were plenty of tears when she saw us all waiting eagerly with balloons and presents, I’m really glad she enjoyed it. I did too! I got to see some cousins i hardly ever see and had a really good laugh with them all. Here’s a picture of all the balloons she got!:)

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Maybe I’ll post later today and let you know how my days been (not that you care) or if anything if significance has happened so that I can document it and remember it. These are precious times, you know. 🙂

ADVENTURE.

adventuresIt just hit me, literally as I was logging in, it hit me.
Why I wrote the book!
Whenever I was asked, it was hard to answer WHY I wrote Away with the fairies and just like that, I knew why.
EXCITEMENT!
I crave excitement in my life, and because I have little, I wrote excitement into someone elses.
No matter how stupid and pathetic it is, I am Poppy Garner. I’ve run away to Dreamland and married a prince and I’m in my own little fantasy. That’s why I wrote it. Escape from the boredom and endless routine of life.
Wake up, go to school, come home, wish I was thinner or more clever or had less spots or the energy to clean my room, do my homework and go to bed.
Parties, work, school and home aren’t exciting enough for me. They are short bursts of excitement that just aren’t enough! I want an ADVENTURE! I want to travel to new places and discover new people. I want a fairytale!
I know I sound deluded and stupid, but I’m so passionate about this! I want to be like someone out of the movies, or the books that I read.
I’m not saying I’m unhappy with my life, because I’m not, I’ve got a family, a boyfriend, amazing friends, but I don’t wake up in the morning wondering what today will bring, because I already know, boredom, forcing myself to stay awake through endless lessons and then going home and preparing to do it all again.
I’m officially counting down the days until I am old enough to travel, with anyone that wants to come along. To explore, to discover!
I know when I’m getting bored, because I have an overwhelming urge to read, or to write. Its because I want to escape into another world.
I cant remember the last time I felt my stomach churn in excitement or legs shake with nerves and heart flutter.
I want so much more than Goostrey, than England, than this!

Appreciation for Parents.

At this age, you think you know it all.
But we don’t.

we wouldn’t be anything without our mum’s and dads.

we wouldn’t have clean clothes, a nice, cooked dinner on the table. We wouldn’t have the money to pay for things such as the broadband so many of us can’t imagine life without.

We wouldn’t have ANYTHING, and we certainly don’t show them the appreciation they deserve.

Parents are the ones who, first and foremost, gave us the greatest gift of all; the gift of LIFE. without them, I wouldn’t be here writing this, and you wouldn’t be there reading it. After that they go on to feed us, clothe us, teach us to talk, to walk, to run. They are the ones who kiss that poorly knee better once you’ve fallen of the bike Dad taught you to ride and Mum saved up to buy for you. Parents enrol us into school to give us a good, qualitative education and they teach us wrong from right.

They are the ones we go to for advice, the ones that make christmas happen (That doesn’t just happen, You know. Parents literally put blood, sweat and a lot of money into making christmas what it is.), that buy our birthday cakes and presents, they shed that proud tear when you say that one line you have in the school play you’ve been practicing for months.

They had a life once before they brought us into the world. They could go out when they pleased to see friends or go to see a film or to drink, yet they gave most of it up so that they could care for you and let you live the life they substituted for you.

They save and they work to earn the money that makes your world go round.

Yet we take that for granted.

‘My mum’s a bitch.’ When she won’t let you go to see the new band you like without an adult, because you’re not old enough to look after yourself, even if you think you are, the minute that big strong man see’s you and picks you up, you have no chance.

She isn’t doing it to be a bitch, she’s doing it to protect you.

I’ve done it, I still do. I take my parents for granted every single day. Those little things they spend time doing,  that make the difference.

‘Dad’s a douche’ because he wont give YOU the ten pounds that YOU want to spend on a new top. That ten pounds HE worked for. HE spent time earning?

What gives you the right to take that away from him?

I’m not saying the kids of this generation are bad kids, I’m saying sometimes we all forget how much our parents worked for us, fought for us, bought for us, gave up for us.

They made their own lives harder, so ours could be great.

Say Thank you to them.