My group of friends

I was going to write a heartwarming post about the fact I made a muscly, bald and tattooed man cry tonight, but then I got angry so I’ll vent instead.

Me and my friends (by friends I mean the girls and by the girls I mean gee,Sarah, Lucy, Becca & Sophie.) get (an app where people can ask you questions anonymously and only me and becca have got these when i say we) asking us why our ‘group always fall out’ or are ‘so bitchy about each other’ and whatnot and it’s just annoyed me.

First of all, what the fuck is a group? A group is something you join or whatever. We’re just 6 girls that are bestfriends, not some kind of cult.

Best friends are people that you love alot, usually you spend alot of time with them, can tell them your secrets and so on and so forth.
However, it doesn’t mean that you think your best friends are absolutely perfect and deny the fact that they could ever put a foot wrong. If you do then you have a very clouded vision of friendship.
We spend so much time together, whenever we can, because we love each other. But, as Cheryl cole once famously said, too much of anything can make you sick and that my friends, applies to us girls. Everyone has their flaws & annoying parts and if you keep them bottled up to yourself then you end up going crazy & hating that person.
Luckily, there’s 6 of us, so we at least have one other person to vent to. Not gunna lie, I’ve had a good old rant about one of them to another and they’ve done the exact same thing.
Everyone ‘bitches’, most of all girls.
We all hate eachother sometimes and to be honest there are times when I’d like to thump them hard on the head. I flicked Sarah in the nose yesterday. Yet I can trust them with my life (maybe not my food) and I know that no matter what, they’re gunna be there for me throughout whatever pointless drama I’m facing, and they know that I’ll always be there for them. We can’t help but be. I wouldn’t want to go anywhere with people that weren’t my bestfriends because they make me laugh so very much and we have so many amazing memories together.
I wouldn’t change my friends for the world and I intend to bitch about them until the day I turn 94 and shrivel into non-existence.
Love from me x


The girls

Alright, so it’s twenty past two in the afternoon and I’m still in my Pajamas in bed, watching criminal minds.. Again. I need to do at least one productive thing today and i think that should be posting on WordPress.
I got the grades I needed for college & enrolled at Sir John Deanes, so that’s another thing I’m able to tick from the bucket list.
Me and my cousin made cosmopolitans, but not with any measures so it was kind of a sickly vodka mess.. But cosmo’s none the less!

As for the letters, I just wrote a three paged one to my mum & dad. In it, I confessed to my broken wardrobe so if I never post again it’s because they have crucified me.
I need to write ones to my bestfriends ‘the girls’ but you see there are 5 of them and that’s five letters. I believe by the end of them I’ll have terrible scrawly handwriting and my wrist may snap so I thought I’d just show them my appreciation for them in this post in one big letter for all of them:

Pffft! I wrote it out on my phone to copy and paste it here. It was massive. Then I accidentally deleted it. It took me 25 minutes and if you think I’m going to write it again you can think again. I love you girls but not that much.x
Here’s some pictures of us so you get the gist..












I’m feeling like there’s a huge distance developing between me and some of my bestfriends.
It’s nearly the end of the year and its getting me so so down.
I just feel like they’d much rather be friends with those ‘popular’ people rather than me. As soon as they see them they smile and shout their names and its so obvious that they’re trying to impress them. Sometimes it’s embarrassing..
It’s not that they need to impress these ‘populars’, they like them enough, yet they still try and I’m really struggling to understand why.
Have you ever felt really unwanted, unwelcome and generally just lonely? That’s how I feel when it’s just us.
I know for a fact sometimes they wish it was just them, yano, ‘three’s a crowd’ and all that.
They’d rather be on the other side of the room talking to the ‘populars’ but stay with me to be polite. Then when they do spend half their time with them, they wonder why I have my music in and I don’t say a lot. They’d rather just have eachother over and not me, but they ask me to be polite. They probably don’t care for my opinion but listen, just to be polite and they probably wish I wouldn’t tag along but let me, just to be polite.
I’m probably blowing this really out of proportion and over reacting, but it’s the way this all is in my head. My sadness is eating away at me and I really need to get it off my chest. I’m sorry if you read this and I’m sorry if I upset you. But it’s just how I feel.
We used to be so close and I knew that no matter what I would always be welcome in their company but now I just feel like an unwanted tag along.
I’m not being that anymore. I want to feel welcome so I’m spending my time with people who do just that.
It feels better to tell someone that 🙂